this lil girl is trying to draw her map

to tell the truth, i’m tired being a mediator… for not taking sides and that i have to be sharp in separating which one is a lie, which one is real. which one is drama, which one is the truth, which one is wrong, which one is right, which one is hyperbole, which one is hidden. analized it and make conclusion, trying to get them back together in peace, to get it back to where the things were, trying not to hurt each other, and how to cheer them up, trying to be as wise as i can, as honest as i can, not to make any mistake. No more missunderstanding

what am i suppose to do with you girls? what does a friendship means to you? what does a sisterhood means to you? both of you live together long enough to understand that. look, i’m so soorry really sorry if i said something wrong, please know that i’ve been trying to do my best for you, for all of us. you can have my shoulder to cry on, i got your back

If only she didn’t tell me “please tell her what she needs to know and take her to my wedding” maybe i could just step aside and pretend that i know nothing. It wasn’t my line

i wish that she loves you more than i do
that way would relieved me and makes me glad
or else i’d be sad

you’re too precious for any unworthy woman
take care and be happy ever after

Katie, don’t cry, I know
You’re trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it’s haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so

Let’s not pretend you’re alone tonight
(I know he’s there)
You’re probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she’ll say yes

Because these words are never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I’ll be miserable at best

You’re all I hoped I’d find
In every single way
And everything I could give
Is everything you couldn’t take
Cause nothing feels like home, you’re a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay

Because I know I’m good for something
I just haven’t found it yet
But I need it

So let’s not pretend like you’re alone tonight
(I know he’s there)
You’re probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she’ll say yes

Because these words are never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I’ll be miserable at best

ladada ladada ladadaoh ohhh

And this will be the first time in a week
That I’ll talk to you
And I can’t speak
Been three whole days since I’ve had sleep
Because I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I’m not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly

So let’s not pretend that you’re alone tonight
(I know he’s there)
You’re probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she’ll say yes

Because these words are never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I’ll be miserable
And I can live without you
But without you I’ll be miserable
And I can live without you
Oh, without you I’ll be miserable at best

bagaimana harus mengakhiri? bagaimana harus merelakan? bagaimana harus melupakan? dan memulai sesuatu yang baru. membuka hati untuk yang lain. this heart.. diciptakan tidak semudah membalikkan tangan untuk mencintai seseorang. karena itu juga sangat sulit untuk melepaskan kenangan yang pernah ada. dan sayangnya kita tidak bisa menghapus ingatan dari otak kita..selamanya.

would you show me how? would you please teach me how? dia tidak membutuhkanku lagi kan? lalu untuk apa lagi? kau terlalu berharga untuk menangisi sesuatu yang sia-sia. aku butuh some distractions. tapi tidak tahu dimana memulainya. berdua dengan Tuhanku saja. berkeluh kesah padaNya. i’ve got to do something with it ga bisa seperti ini terus…

pernah terpikir nggak kenapa jatuh cinta itu diawali dengan kata “jatuh”?

Tanya…Tanya Tanya bicaralah pada hati kecilmu.. kau tahu apa yang terbaik bagi dirimu sendiri. kau terlalu berharga untuk menghabiskan waktu dengan hal-hal yang tak berarti. hati kecilmu tahu.. hati kecilmu tahu.. it’d be over and you’ll start over, Tanya

where’s that school girl? that daddy’s only daughter? i miss you dad. you’ll come over this month right? bring me more Russian’s doll. i’ll put it on my table… you won’t mad at me will ya? i love you. i love you i love you Я тебя люблю.
Я тебя люблю.
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Я тебя люблю.
Я тебя люблю.
don’t be mad to this lil baby girl of yours,daddy

WHAT MUSLIMAH CHARACTER ARE YOU

1.WHAT WAS A WOMAN’S GREATEST ROLE??
As a source of happiness to her husband and children

2.WHAT ARE THE CHARACTERISTICS BEST DESCRIBED YOU??
truthful, supportive, faithful, devoted

3.WHAT IS THE MOST HONORABLE PROFESSION FOR A MUSLIMAH??
A house wife
yeah.. don’t judge! being a house wife isn’t that easy

4.WHAT IS THE MAIN PURPOSE OF MARRIAGE??
To have a legal unison between a man and a woman and make life happy. To create a stable family that will give rise to a stable society and a stable community

5.WHAT IS THE ROLE OF MUSLIMAH TO HER HUSBAND??
To be a helper in his goal, be like his assistance and a critic

6.HOW TO BE A GOOD MUSLIM
to excel in knowledge
and akhlaqul karimah

7.WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF LIFE
To seek more knowledge to be near Him more and To teach thy children to love and fear Him and be a better Muslimin & muslimah

and the result is: FATIMA AZ ZAHRA , ra
The youngest daughter of the Prophet(pbuh) and Khadijah (RA) and married to the 4th Khalifah of Islam, Ali ibn Abu Talib (ra). She was closely resembled her father the Prophet, her demeanor, speech, accent, the way of sitting and standing and her gait was precisely like that of the prophet. Fatima Zahra was the most beloved daughter of the Prophet . He (pbuh) said: “Fatima is part of me. Whoever offends her, he will have offended me.” Aisha(RA) said : I have never met a person more truthfulness and straight forward than Fatima except her father, the Prophet (pbuh).

Ya Allah.. semoga bisa seperti dia T_T;

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you

If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I’d still feel for you

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You’re all i need
My love, my valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You’ve opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly

I’ve dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams i couldn’t love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You’re all i need
My love, my valentine

La da da
Da da da da

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
Cuz all i need
Is you, my valentine

You’re all i need
My love, my valentine

Its sooo cold. As if my jacket wasn’t warm enough to let me go for a walk…
Aku kembali lagi,
Aku ingin menemuiMU, Tuhan.
Bergelung meringkuk dikakiMU
Merangkul manja di pangkuanMU
Menangis mengadu hanya kepadaMU
Doa yang sama sejak aku mengenalnya, Tuhan
Sama dan berulang-ulang
Bukakanlah hatinya tuk mengenalMU
Agar hidayahMU merasuk ke relung kalbunya
Berikanlah inayah kepadanya, Tuhan
Agar dia mengenalMU, tidak sekedar dari apa yang ia baca/dengar
Karena sungguh, ia begitu sempurna dimataku
Namun sejauh manalah aku mengenalnya, hanya sedikit dibandingkan Engkau yang maha tahu
Maafkan aku Tuhan, aku menyayanginya
Jika pun dia bukan untukku,
Hati ini seakan tidak rela jika dia masih jauh dariMU
Rengkuhlah ia, Tuhan
Hanya karena Kau tak terlihat, bukan berarti Kau tak ada
Tuntunlah ia menuju jalanMU
Kumohon padaMU Tuhan, kumohon dengan sangat.

Hanya Kau yang tahu rahasia di balik hati, usaha dan doaku.. ku berserah kepadaMU
Ijinkan aku terlelap dalam kasihMU, Tuhan semesta alam.

You got it soo wrong dad! Please.. No more missunderstanding. It’s indonesia remember?
Give her time to breathe..serious case and her stressfull thoughts of how do we get all fixed. Its sort of frightened me

Its not the money. Its not about the ass kissers and the leeches.. Huh? I dont know either
Do you think itd all better if we were in aussy? Instead of bein apart like this. Nah thats different thing.

jalan-jalan ke mall wajarlah bagi cewek-cewek jadi lapar mata.. apalagi ngeliat merk cukup terkenal berdiskon 50%. ngeborong deh tuh.. xD seolah baru dapet gajian aja prend ku ini, karena belanjaannya lumayan. hadiah voucher makannya juga lumayan.. senilai Rp.140.000,-

Alhamdulillah setelah menyerbu cafe yang makanannya lumayan enak rasanya.. makan Rp.150.000,- jadi cuma bayar Rp.30.000,- >.< perut kenyang lidah puas..kantong irit

*** bagi org yg ga suka kucing kumohon jangan baca ini

Akhirnya rangkaian huruf arab yg kubaca mencapai satu ‘Ain. Baru akan kulanjutkan satu paragraf lagi tuk mencapai juz berikutnya ketika tiba2 kuingat sesuatu.. Sesuatu yg biasa menemaniku kala ku berada disini, di mushola ini. Yang kutahu huruf-huruf hijaiyah didepan mataku memudar..semakin kabur oleh butir-butir airmata yg memaksa keluar meleleh dipipiku. Ya Allah.. Satu ‘ain lagi.. Biarkan aku membaca kitabMu..satu ‘ain lagi.. Biar kututup juz ini malam ini.

Seorang temenku, tanpa sengaja nyeletuk “knapa c? Kucingmu mati ya?” demi Allah jangan pernah katakan hal seperti itu didepan ibuku! Ya Allah, i don’t wanna see her cry again. Kau tidak pernah tau bagaimana gembiranya ibuku ketika kami mendapatkannya. Kau tak pernah tau bagaimana ibuku merawatnya, apalagi ketika dia sakit. Kau tak pernah tau bagaimana gundahnya ibuku jika tak melihatnya sebelum beliau pergi meninggalkan rumah.

To me.. Dia biasa tidur dijendela atau dilantai kamarku. Terbangun dan mengikuti ketika ku berwudhu..dan tidur di ujung mushola,seolah menemaniku beribadah malam hari. Tidak, aku tidak mengusirnya..sebagaimana Abu hurairah, sahabat nabi kita Muhammad membiarkan seorang kucing yg tertidur diatas sajadahnya. Demi Allah, bagi kami kucing itu sudah seperti keluarga sendiri.

Ya Allah kumohon kembalikan dia padaku, terutama untuk ibuku..untuk keluarga kami. I’m terribly sorry mom..

“Ketika Cinta Bertasbih” an islamic love story. I’ve read the novels..now its time to watch the movie d(^.^)b

Sekalipun cinta telah kuceritakan
Dan ku uraikan panjang lebar
Namun jika aku harus menemui cinta..
..aku jadi malu..
Pada ceritaku sendiri.

How cool is that >.<

1. Aku cinta dia ~ Gita Gutawa
“Oh Tuhan tolonglah..AKU CINTA DIA..”

2. Tinggalkan dia ~ Kotak
“Ah kutak bisa melihat kau bersamanya..tapi tak seharusnya dengan dia kau mencinta..”

3. Cinta terlarang ~ The virgin

4. Status palsu ~ Vidi Aldiano

5. Pemain cinta ~ Ada band(very handsome vocalist) xp

6. Tak ada yang abadi ~ Peterpan

7. Dengarkan curhatku ~ Vierra
“jujurlah padaku jujurlah padaku.. Kau menyimpan rasa kau menyimpan rasa cinta..”

8. Kapan lagi bilang I love you ~ Dewi Sandra

9. Mudah saja ~ Sheila on seven

10. Superman ~ Lucky lacki (cutey sweety handsome boys x3)
“aku bukanlah superman aku juga bisa nangis xD xp”

may took the Who Is Your Disney Prince? quiz and the result is Aladdin

Your Prince is a bit of a rascal. He does not always follow the rules but he knows how to get the best out of life. He would go to the ends of the earth for you and his bad boy charm and wit are irresistible. He truly is a diamond in the rough.

Ya ampyuuuunnnn yang namanya christian bautista tuh kok ganteng banget sieeee… >.< trully tipe gw bangeeddd. aku suka selain lagu2nya bagus juga karena chris mirip ma si "E". tapi overall tetep "E" is number 1.
xDDDD ga dapet si "E", chrisnya buat aku aja deh *ngarep mode on* eh gak...
lah kok malah kisahku jadi kayak lagunya yg duet sama penyanyi asal indo, LALA => unsaid T_T
ya Tuhan..please..kumohon berilah yg tampangnya mirip2 kaya yg kusebut diatas..amin >.< x333

ririn : : critana gini
ririn : : semua org yg umurnya lebih dr 100 thn di ausiee ma england.. pasti dpt kartu b’day dr queen
ririn : : umur 100… trus umur 105 lg.. pas umur 101.. 102..103..104 queen gak ngirim b’day card
ririn : : nahh there is an old woman in england
ririn : : she is now 106 years old
tania maya: o.O
tania maya: ada jg org setuwir itu
ririn : : brarti dia dah dpt 3 b’day card
ririn : : pas dpt b’day card yg ketiga.. deknya gak suka
tania maya: loh bukane 2? 100 ma 105
ririn : : dia bilang.. koq tiap taun aq dpt b’day card dgn design yg sama + kalimat yg sama
tania maya: xD da dikasi protes
ririn : : 100 105 106
ririn : : yeap
ririn : : deknya kirim surat ke queen
ririn : : bilang gini
ririn : : “dear queen… im so happy got ur b’day card.. and thank you for that.. but i dont like it anymore because every year you sent me the same card. So if you want to sent me another card for my birthday next year.. i want the other card.”
tania maya: xDDD ditanggepin ga yah
ririn : : trus queen concernt bgt ma old woman ini
ririn : : trus dia kirim prince willian buat ngobrol ma nie old woman
ririn : : *william
ririn : : yeap.. di tanggapi laa.. brp sie org yg umurnya lebih dr 100 tahun di dunia
ririn : : trus akhirnya prince william dtg
tania maya: XDD iyah ya
tania maya: wokkss prince william
ririn : : trus minum teh bareng nie old woman
ririn : : trus pas mo pulang
ririn : : nie old woman said something to william.. dgn suara serak + cemprengnya.. dia bilang gini
ririn : : “oo..ooo… dont forget to tell your grand mother.. i dont want the same birthday card again for next year.. dont forget that!”
ririn : : hehehehe
ririn : : yeap
tania maya: xD
tania maya: lah princenya ga kasih aja sekalian card nya pas visit si old woman
ririn : : kan blm birthday
ririn : : jd gak di kasi
tania maya: klkkllkll
tania maya: waduh ngobrol ma price william..mau dong
ririn : : yeap
ririn : : namanya jg di england
tania maya: ouwwooww keren
ririn : : yeapp
tania maya: tau dari mana
ririn : : di sini semua2 mirip england
tania maya: i mean concernnya keren
ririn : : pemerintahannya ma kebudayaannya
ririn : : yeap
ririn : : yaahh paling mreka pny data sendiri
tania maya: hmm
tania maya: kok bisa yah negara sekecil itu memerintah sak benua
ririn : : hu’uh

Slowly opened my eyes..placed my hand on my chest..up and down theres the beat i was looking for..steady.. I’m still alive!

Ride my new red blaze motorcycle might be a good idea ^.~
There was wind that wasn’t there before,blowing my skin against my skull and flinging my hair back behind me with enough force that it felt like someone was tugging on it. I’d left my stomach back at the starting point; the adrenaline coursed through my body,tingling in my veins. The trees raced past me, blurring into a wall of green. And i was flying.

XD Unfortunately not dare enough to speed up. I can only handle 80-90 km/hour. Maybe could do more if theres no other on the street. Itd be some combination of adrenaline and danger,or maybe just stupidity. Racing down the road like that had been amazing. The feel of the wind in my face, the speed and the freedom…

Or else.. Climb the mountain feel the cold wind run down thru the valley or feel the sea brezze in sempu island. I miss it. We used to spend our holidays on the mountain, watched the fallen stars..hike the highest mountain in java. I used to be in d front line of the group, ran as fast as i can then stoped to enjoy the view and took deep breath of pure fresh air. Munched the watery lil fruits when our bottles are empty. Hard to do that now eh? Different schedule and parted. I miss you all

Cinta itu ada padaMu, Allah
ku yakin Kau tak kan pernah meniggalkanku
Kau kan selalu menjagaku kapanpun, dimanapun aku berada
Kau selalu ada
Kuserahkan semua padamu.. atas do’a do’a dan usahaku.

taken from Sayyidah Fatimah Azzahra’s group on fb

You look at me and call me oppressed,
Simply because of the way I’m dressed,
You know me not for what’s inside,
You judge the clothing I wear with pride,
My body’s not for your eyes to hold,
You must speak to my mind, not my feminine mold,
I’m an individual, I’m no mans slave,
It’s Allahs pleasure that I only crave,
I have a voice so I will be heard,
For in my heart I carry His word,
“O ye women, wrap close your cloak,
So you won’t be bothered by ignorant folk”,
Man doesn’t tell me to dress this way,
It’s a Law from God that I obey,
Oppressed is something I’m truly NOT,
For liberation is what I’ve got,
It was given to me many years ago,
With the right to prosper, the right to grow,
I can climb moutains or cross the seas,
Expand my mind in all degrees,
For God Himself gave us LIB-ER-TY,
When He sent Islam,
To You and Me!

“Dan katakanlah kepada para perempuan yang beriman, agar mereka menjaga pandangannya, dan memelihara kemaluannya, dan janganlah menampakkan perhiasannya (auratnya), kecuali yang (biasa) terlihat. Dan hendaklah mereka menutupkan kain kerudung (jilbab) ke dadanya, dan janganlah menampakkan perhiasannya (auratnya), kecuali kepada suami mereka, atau ayah mereka, atau ayah suami mereka, atau putra-putra mereka, atau putra-putra suami mereka, atau saudara laki-laki mereka, atau putra-putra saudara perempuan mereka, atau para perempuan (sesama Islam) mereka, atau hamba sahaya yang mreka miliki, atau para pelayan tua, yang tidak memiliki keinginan (terhadap perempuan), atau anak-anak yang belum mengerti aurat perempuan. Dan, janganlah mereka menghentakkan kakinya agar diketahui perhiasan yang mereka sembunyikan. Dan, bertobatlah kamu semua kepada Allah, wahai orang-orang beriman, supaya kamu beruntung”. (An-Nur : 31).

Ten to ten wo tsunagu you ni
Sen wo egaku yubi ga nazoru no wa
Watashi no kita michi soretomo ikisaki

Sen to sen wo musubu futari
Yagate minna umi ni tadoritsuki hitotsu ni naru kara
Kowakunai keredo

Oh oh ikutsu mono kawa wo nagare
Wake mo kikazu ni
Ataerareta namae to tomo ni

Oh oh subete wo ukeireru nante
Shinakute ii yo
Watashitachi no itami ga ima tobidatta

That’s why…
That’s why I chose you

Ken to ken ga butsukariau oto o
Shiru tame ni takusareta ken ja nai yo
Sonna mujun de dare wo mamoreru no

Oh oh Nando mo sugata o kaete
Watashi no mae ni maiorita anata wo
Kyou wa sagashiteru

Oh oh Doko demo ukeirerareyou to
Shinaide ii yo
Jibun rashisa to iu TSURUGI wo minna sazukatta

Oh oh Toki ni wa nagare wo kaete
Nani mo motazu ni
Ataerareta namae to tomo ni

Oh oh subete wo ukeireru nante
Shinakute ii yo
Shiokaze ni mukai toritachi ga ima tobidatta

~*~Translation~*~
My finger draws a line
Between two points..
Those points are the roads I have walked so far, and my destination
The two of us are joining two points
Eventually we’ll reach the sea and become one
Though. i’m not afraid
Countless rivers flow
Without so much as asking why
We don’t have to..
..Accept everything
As freely as the names we were given
Now all our pain has flown away..

That’s why..That’s why i chose you

This sword hasn’t been entrusted to us
So that we can hear the sound of one sword striking another
Who can we protect with such a contradiction?
I’m searching today
For you, who changed your form so many times
Before you decended before me
We don’t need to try
To be accepted everywhere
We have all been blessed with a sword of individuality
Sometimes, it’s ok to change the direction in which we flow
Without taking anything with us
We don’t have to
..Accept everything
As freely as the names we were given
Now the birds have flown away, into the sea breeze.

“taking your mind off of things is a way to do it.
”

ok

Bentar. Biarkan aq ketawa dulu *ngakak* sebelum orang lain menertawakanku. I feel like a match maker. A matchmaker! Ngerti ga? Mak comblang deh. Nyomblangin orang yg aq sayang sama ce lain yg notabene belum 1jam lamanya aq berkenalan dengannya. Gila! Iyah dunia ini emang gila nian mempermainkan aku.

“Mencintai dan Keinginan untuk memiliki itu berbeda” Selama ini,kata2 tersebut baru kuliat di drama2. Ternyata sekarang aq tau maknanya. Aku akan bahagia melihatnya senang, aku turut sedih bila ia sedih. Aku cinta padanya.

Ya Tuhan inikah cinta? Aku lebih memilih Engkau dari pangeran yang mempesona hatiku. Namun perasaan apa yang menyesak di dada ini, Allah? Ada sesuatu yang membuat jantungku sulit memompa darah yang mengalirkan oksigen ke paru-paruku.

Berdosakah jika aku tidak rela melepasnya?
Ah anggap saja seperti melupakan kakak kelas ganteng saat di SMP dulu. Yg dikemudian hari aku baru sadar bahwa aku hanya mengidolakannya,tak pernah mencintainya.

Atau pada dua hati yang pernah singgah sebelumnya. Yang dikemudian hari aku bersyukur telah lepas dari keduanya dan sadar bahwa aku telah melakukan keputusan yang tepat,sangat tepat.

Lalu Kau mempertemukanku dengannya,Tuhan. Seorang adam yang sempurna dari semua yang pernah kukenal. Namun ia tak mengenalMU. Sedih hati ini mengetahui bahwa ia jauh dariMu. Dia adalah sosok yang kusayangi,Tuhan,maka kumohon dekaplah ia dalam kasih sayangMU yang tak terbatas.

Aku yakin Kau menyayangiku,Tuhan, kumohon berikanlah aku pengganti dirinya. Seseorang yang mengenalMU,seseorang yang selalu kupinta padaMU diakhir istikharahku. Seseorang yang mencintaiMU lebih dari apapun, yang akan membimbingku untuk lebih dekat lagi denganMU, Allah.

~*~Cinta Terlarang by The virgin~*~
Kau kan slalu tersimpan di Hatiku
Meski ragamu tak dapat ku miliki
Jiwaku kan slalu bersamamu
Meski kau tercipta bukan untukku

Tuhan berikan aku hidup satu kali lagi
Hanya untuk bersamanya
Ku mencintainya sungguh mencintainya

Rasa ini sungguh tak wajar
Namun ku ingin tetap bersama dia
Untuk selamanya

Mengapa cinta ini terlarang
Saat ku yakini kaulah milikku
Mengapa cinta kita tak bisa bersatu
Saat ku yakin tak ada cinta selain dirimu